As you know I was off to Georgia to see Dusty for hos first pass and it was priceless from start to finish He had some really good well deserved sleep today and I just sat and watched him snoring and for me there is nothing sweeter than sitting back and seeing one of the boys sleeping very sound , and safe. We had such a great time together. And as silly as it may sound , the chance to watch his sleeping time is so precious to me. I breathe much easier when I can sit back and see him safe at sleep. I would give anything to see the other baby boy snoozing. Its one of those things you take for granted until you dont have the opportunity anymore.
Oh I have to tell you it was such Schmit day.. Taylor was able to call from over there and talk to Dusty & I. It was such a treasured time for them. There were lots of laughs & lots of tears on both ends of the line. They make me so very proud. Mostly because they have such a great love for each other and it shows when we have one of these rare gifts like we had with them being able to be together for a moment. I have to say it was difficult for me and this has been an emotional roller coaster this weekend.First seeing Dusty in his uniform with that wonderful I did it Mom look, to picking up the phone and hearing Tay on the other end, and seeing the look on Dustys face when he realized who it was on the other end, to the guys telling me what an inspiration & a guy you can count on, "Uncle Dusty" is for them how when some dont seem to be able to carry on they will look up and see Dusty lugging 2 rucksaks & 4 rifles ...to Dusty running out in the hallway telling all hey my baby brother just called from Iraq!!! and again seeing the pride in family.. You can hear it and see it. What a gift I have been given. He had told me he did very well in land navigation & I have to say it came in so hndy when I had us so lost at Benning that I and his buddy were almost in tears in the fear they would be late getting back from pass...but from the middle of the deep woods of Ft Benning he managed to keep his head on straight and got us back in time. . I came back from dropping Dusty off after his pass feeling so much pride I thought I would burst, to feeling more lost han I have ever felt . I walked into the hotel lobby full of teenage girls from a softball team and their families who were in GA for a tournament having the time of their lives and I wondered if they knew how much sacrifice goes on each day so they can be in such celebration over softball and such. and I realized they were probably like a lot of America, they dont realize because they dont have to . I do because I have to. All said I am very lonley for days gone by, and so full of pride knowing it will be better one day & it will balance out, and I will be somewhere having the time of my life, with those baby boys of mine in tow...